I really dont know why i allow myself to be feeling this kinda shit. You have gone crazy again, ever since the argument over my fucked up attitude. I know i do have that but you're such an asshole too. You kept making me go nuts over your temperamental periods. I mean you treat me like a princess during our honeymoon period. I thought the world of you thinking why would a person like you would ever love and accept a person like me. However you went nuts when you went into OCS, you have no idea what a wreck i was. I told myself that i will never ever allow you to do that to me again. I grew stronger and that's when you came back to me. You treated me like dabombz again like nothing ever happened. But did i forget about it no. You have no idea how much it hurt, how much i cried how much it affected me. You always have this undescribeable way of yours that makes me so damn vunerable whenever i'm in your presence. I felt my promise to myself slipping. And that's when it all happened again. wow, you sure hit me at the perfect timing. i mean a small part of me always know and warn myself that this may happen again. However you cant blame me for hoping that it will never happen again. i mean i thought that if it does happen again, it wouldnt feel so bad as before yeah? yeap i was right about one thing it wasnt as bad as before, but it still hurts like a bitch. I know i can never let my guard down no more, i dont want to be vunerable to anyone not even you. i will overcome this and become stronger.
This is me, i can do it.
I'm getting tired of this benedict, i really am.