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Date ; Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Time ; 3:50 PM
Title ;

havent blog for awhile.
doing the freaking ICT test now.
which sucks to the max by the way. hahhas
just came back from outside.
talked to baby and maisie:D
hmmm.. really miss maisie(:
can feel that we drifted by what to do?!
hahas.
i'm the one at fault.
going to NCC after this freaking thing.
then heading back to gracehaven. ):
no homework today! YAY
todays history test was easy.
thank goodness i studied. PHEWWW
gotta do my art later when i get back(:
should be going to the bbq that baby's "grandma" invited me and him
to go.
hmmm... decided to go town to shop for my clothes like before that
then go to the bbq. that depends if he managed to get a car.
hmmm..
I got 163 for my grading! the max points that can be added!
wheee... aiming for parole by october! :DD
happyhappy
alright nidta do my freaking test now(:
texting baby(:

Date ; Thursday, January 21, 2010
Time ; 6:22 PM
Title ;

I'm like in the library doing my supposed art project
hoho. which is already done.
only that i must wait to print it. hahas
hmms.
just now he talked to me.
seriously things were super awkward.
it's like helooooo...
but yeah, he told me to last long
and asked some other random questions about baby.
then he said he got cut because he broke curfew.
why?cause that was the day we broke up.
tommy rot. but his happily with her now.
and i'm glad with it(: cause i do have baby now.
yeah. what he said was true.
the past is the past. mention it no more.
we both have our own partners too. and thats all that matters.
talked to baby for like really lonnngggg today.
cause he called into weijia's phone furthermore,
he had to send documents to like a company thats why he is free.(:
he says he may come and fetch me after school tomorrow!
cause he needs to go back to school to help the teacher's plan a diving trip for their
school. but his meeting's at ten and i end at 12.30.
he said he would try his best yeah, and would tell me if he's coming tomorrow.
really hope so.
miss him to the max manssss..
want to smell his unique body smell again.(i know it sounds wrong) hahas.
later~

Date ;
Time ; 1:32 PM
Title ; waiting for the school bell(:

i'm like at the school computer lab now.
ahhahs.
finally completed my maths quiz online.
hehe.
and i scored full marks.
*happyhappy*
cant wait to tell baby(:
wanted to watch like the "spynextdoor" movie.
but in the end like so much homework to do,
so me and baby decided that he's coming over to study with me(:
hahas.
i guess that isnt so bad yeah(:
update later~
SCHOOL'SSS OVERRRRRR

Date ; Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Time ; 7:38 PM
Title ; I'm here without you baby):

Currently back here.):
In the computer cum library with Yanting an Katrina.
Supposed to do my art.(which i'm like three-quarters done alright) :D
went to baby's facebook just now and this is what his profile wrote:

I believe that a persons past has got nothing to do with how we view an individual, after all, what matters most is the present not the past. People deserve the chance to enter the proving grounds, whatever the result is a separate matter.
Living life without regrets can be tough but its the only way we're gonna make our way out of the vicious cycle of self pity and dread. So look on the bright side and get on with life.

Hmm.. Is he talking about me?

hahahs.

One can only guess yeah(:

really dunno why i miss him during the times he's not around to accompany me.

i know i shouldnt put so much hope and trust in someone.

but i cant help it! ):

when you told me you loved me.

i dont know were you saying it for the sake of saying or you really meant it.

there are so many different reasons i can find to point that you're saying it for the sake of saying. Cause you do know that i'm waiting for you to say that 3 words.

But i dont want it this way.

i want you to say it only when you really meant it.

if not there's no point yeah.

alright, i'm gonna stop here(:

gonna continue my art research

i'm listening to dear god now.

cause that whats you wrote/typed to me):

can i stop thinking about you?!

arghhhhh

Faking it till I make it.
CLARE It's the little things. The past. November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 February 2011 March 2011 May 2011 August 2011 September 2011 April 2012 August 2012	Date ; Wednesday, January 27, 2010 Time ; 3:50 PM Title ; havent blog for awhile. doing the freaking ICT test now. which sucks to the max by the way. hahhas just came back from outside. talked to baby and maisie:D hmmm.. really miss maisie(: can feel that we drifted by what to do?! hahas. i'm the one at fault. going to NCC after this freaking thing. then heading back to gracehaven. ): no homework today! YAY todays history test was easy. thank goodness i studied. PHEWWW gotta do my art later when i get back(: should be going to the bbq that baby's "grandma" invited me and him to go. hmmm... decided to go town to shop for my clothes like before that then go to the bbq. that depends if he managed to get a car. hmmm.. I got 163 for my grading! the max points that can be added! wheee... aiming for parole by october! :DD happyhappy alright nidta do my freaking test now(: texting baby(: Date ; Thursday, January 21, 2010 Time ; 6:22 PM Title ; I'm like in the library doing my supposed art project hoho. which is already done. only that i must wait to print it. hahas hmms. just now he talked to me. seriously things were super awkward. it's like helooooo... but yeah, he told me to last long and asked some other random questions about baby. then he said he got cut because he broke curfew. why?cause that was the day we broke up. tommy rot. but his happily with her now. and i'm glad with it(: cause i do have baby now. yeah. what he said was true. the past is the past. mention it no more. we both have our own partners too. and thats all that matters. talked to baby for like really lonnngggg today. cause he called into weijia's phone furthermore, he had to send documents to like a company thats why he is free.(: he says he may come and fetch me after school tomorrow! cause he needs to go back to school to help the teacher's plan a diving trip for their school. but his meeting's at ten and i end at 12.30. he said he would try his best yeah, and would tell me if he's coming tomorrow. really hope so. miss him to the max manssss.. want to smell his unique body smell again.(i know it sounds wrong) hahas. later~ Date ; Time ; 1:32 PM Title ; waiting for the school bell(: i'm like at the school computer lab now. ahhahs. finally completed my maths quiz online. hehe. and i scored full marks. happyhappy cant wait to tell baby(: wanted to watch like the "spynextdoor" movie. but in the end like so much homework to do, so me and baby decided that he's coming over to study with me(: hahas. i guess that isnt so bad yeah(: update later~ SCHOOL'SSS OVERRRRRR Date ; Tuesday, January 19, 2010 Time ; 7:38 PM Title ; I'm here without you baby): Currently back here.): In the computer cum library with Yanting an Katrina. Supposed to do my art.(which i'm like three-quarters done alright) :D went to baby's facebook just now and this is what his profile wrote: I believe that a persons past has got nothing to do with how we view an individual, after all, what matters most is the present not the past. People deserve the chance to enter the proving grounds, whatever the result is a separate matter. Living life without regrets can be tough but its the only way we're gonna make our way out of the vicious cycle of self pity and dread. So look on the bright side and get on with life. Hmm.. Is he talking about me? hahahs. One can only guess yeah(: really dunno why i miss him during the times he's not around to accompany me. i know i shouldnt put so much hope and trust in someone. but i cant help it! ): when you told me you loved me. i dont know were you saying it for the sake of saying or you really meant it. there are so many different reasons i can find to point that you're saying it for the sake of saying. Cause you do know that i'm waiting for you to say that 3 words. But i dont want it this way. i want you to say it only when you really meant it. if not there's no point yeah. alright, i'm gonna stop here(: gonna continue my art research i'm listening to *dear god* now. cause that whats you wrote/typed to me): can i stop thinking about you?! arghhhhh