God is good, he again answered my prayer.
He sent my boss; Mr Lim this time to talk to me.
He called me in to talk to me and emphasizing to me that i must find a good partner.

"You must accept your partner for who he is, for he'll always keep changing."
                                                                                                 -Mr Lim
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I'm trying God! I really am!

Things have changed so much since you went in.
From everynight calls to every alternate day and now to literally no contact till the weekend.
But yet at times, it seems like everything is perfect back again.
And yet there are so many times i feel like brawling my eyes out.
I cant really explain how or what i'm feeling now.
Am I the only one who is feeling the same way, or are you also feeling it?
Like you dont love me no more and that you're takng me for granted.
I guess not yeah, you are so in love with your work and all.
I mean i feel pissed and jealous of all the time and effort you spent on your work.
Has it ever like occured to you that i feel really lonely without you at times.
I wanna tell you everything that had been going on, but you always seem so busy, tired out so uninterested about everything.
I dont wanna burden and like stress you out with my troubles. So i kept like everything i wanna tell you to myself.
We have not sit down and have a good talk for so long.
You keep everything to yourself now too, you dont tell me anything no more.

And yet i cant help feeling guilty for all my feelings now,you're obviously under alot of stress.
You just have such high expectations for yourself, having all those late nights cause you're up studying. If it is me, i think i would have blown up long time ago.
The Navy is now your future and i know and want to give you my full support.
But then what about me?
I miss you and yet i hate you so darn much of how you're treating and affecting me.